impromptu road trips

f'in rule.

saturday we went from brooklyn to philly. for a cheesesteak. but end up also getting in a couple hours of rock-n-bowl in new jersey.

cant beat that with a stick.

Best. Birthday Weekend. Ever.

things started out on friday. I sold my first TV spot, went out to a friends birthday, another friends going away, and then off to brooklyn where we drank free brooklyn Lager until i had a girlfriend. :)

Saturday. Woke up, got breakfast, walked around brooklyn smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee with the lady. met the best friend, hung out, got tattooed, got dinner, and proceeded to the best birthday party ever.

i was hit in the head with cake, drank a billion beers and shots, had an afterhours party at my place, smoked my last cigarette at 6:20 AM and went to sleep.

woke up sunday to the slumber party in my livingroom. jill made us all breakfast. we watched horror movies all day and despite the sugar in my hair, refused to shower.

went to sleep last night, ready to conquer the world as a 30 year old, non smoking man.

i feel good. i feel really good.

i love you all.

turning old

fuck it. bring it on.

i am so psyched to be able to say "fucking kids" and "in my time" and "back in the day" and "you don't know, you weren't there"

30 is gonna be awesome.

finally able to do it.

i finally am able to listen to this song without being sad.

appropriate enough lyrics for how i am feeling. thank you again beirut.
_____
Well it's been a long time, long time now
since I've seen you smile.
And I'll gamble away my fright.
And I'll gamble away my time.
And in a year, a year or so
this will slip into the sea
Well, it's been a long time, long time now
since I've seen you smile

Nobody raise your voices
Just another night in Nantes
Nobody raise your voices
Just another night in Nantes

lets start over.

hi. my name is jay. m 30th birthday is this weekend. so, i am old now. rad. no seriously, im happy about that.

i want to just say this. ive been out of tough with alot of things, and alot of people but i want everyone to know, that i am ok. i am happy. and i am moving forward.

you would never know it, because of my frequency of postings. but, things are starting to come together, and i shouldnt only write when im angry, or depressed, or annoyed.

i will try to be a more diligent writer.

watching myself destruct.

i guess i just have hit it. im almost deliberately screwing things up. i dont want to. i really dont. but, its too late. the damage is done and now all i have to do is try and pick up what remains.

the only thing making me happy today.

is this.